The cruel reality

This morning, the cruel reality slapped me straight and hard on my face. The director of ICU told me there is small chance for Dear's lungs and heart to improve and tell me to be prepared for the worst. All along, Dr. Maung had been telling me the risks Dear faced when he was on ECMO but he did not add in any percentage to tell me his chance of recovery. In this way, I hold on to the hope that day by day, Dear will improve and negative thoughts gradually slipped out of my mind.

I can't blame the doctor for telling me the negative point. He has a job to do. At least now I don't have to be the bad guy to tell my in laws all these negative talk. Dear's condition is like a race. He is strong to run forward but the bad news is he did not run fast enough and thus, the complication for being on ECMO catch up with him and start to bug his progress. Guess we will have to push him harder.

Libao bought a voice recorder and record all the blessing and wishes from all Dear's colleagues in Mediatek. So sweet of her! She pass me the recorder and I will start playing beside Dear's bed tomorrow. I had also told Christina they all to prepare their speech and record them down. Now the most tedious task is to record Angie's voice. She is chatty but once she sense you have a motive, she may just shut up and walk away. Hmm..think have to dedicate this task to my sister.

Yawn..been a long day since I brought Angie to NUH follow up and I myself did a checkup. Luckily everything was fine but I still experience pain at my left chest when I cough. Guess I will need to observe a few days. Time to sleep cos tomorrow gonna wake up early to support Dear when the doctors perform the removing of blood clots from his lungs. Dear, Jia You! You can do it! You are the strongest man I ever knew! Love you very very much my dear! Good night, miss you! See you soon!